samvedanshil mann........ek majaaak

today i was listening to my pretty long winamp playlist, first time serially(without shuffling). I as it is serially arranged salil kulkarni and sandeep khare duo's songs were in line. especially i am going to tell that it is first time how "sanvedanshil" my mind is

as the first track played  "He Bhalate awaghad asate". this is very touchy song according to most of my friends, but it is funny song according to me ..........very funny. it is well orated song but i take it lightly. खरे तर हे गाणे मी एका मित्राला चिडवण्यासाठी वापरतो......

but then the song was played which almost made me cry (.................exaggerating.......................)

but yes it took out some of the very expensive TEARS from me. the song was "Nasates ghari tu jenvha" 

after my foreward i will move straight analysis part of the whole event. (as an Industrial Engineer move to roooooooooooooooooooot cause) the feelings what came to my mind while listening "Bhalate" and listening "Nasates" there was distinct state of my mind. In fact while analyzing this psychology it is very much hectic job. but i am going to do it

the first & last thing i found the role of mine is different not only differnt but distinct. 

how this role play is affecting your Sanvedanshilataa is very funny and important to know

the first song I never experianced such situation never in my life (nor expecting tooo) so I play the role of viewer of the scene created by the lyricist and the role of hero is played by my friend.

(the reason why i laugh is I had put efforts to take him out from the situation but he is not in understanding condition. let him finish this scene and come to me then we have great things to do together) So it is very simple situation for me.

while listening to second track I was experiance a couple, Infact my parents in that situation. and i felt very sad yes this could happen in my life. it was very touchy. this may happen to me also to my friend also. but the situation is not as first as the feelings expressed were due to long "SAHAWAAS" not of the few days "HASSI-MAJJAK". the sahawas can make so much impact. the one mate which we choose for the whole life (both ways) the responsibility also the shareing of feeling i.e. emotional dependance. 

I find india has very well established "VIVAH SANSTHAA" 

(nehamiche wakya repeat..) farach bharakatat aahe

man sanvedanshil honyasaathi apalyaala "Role play" karayalaa have aahe. sanvedanshil asane ha Netyachaa ek mahatwapoorna goon aahe. apalya saharyaache aani aplya followers che ma janoon ghene he mahatwaache aahe. pan doosri anu tyahoon mahatwaachi gosht mhanaje tya sahakaryala bhawanik ubhari dene. so for me it was the first step I am sanvedanshil.

ajoon khoop pragati karayachi aahe pan ho "Meri Raah to sahi hein"

  

IIT Kharagpur-"the unfortunate day"

It was stormy day in my IIT life. A storm that took with it entire Administration organisation. It was very odd day as the unfortunate incident occur in IIT Kharagpur, A third year B. Tech boy died due to negligence of hospital administration. The students of IIT then in the mood of annoyance gheraao the Director house and they wait there for director's response. the director didn't respond till half an hour so the angry student just went impatient and then started to break the glasses of house and his car.AND on top of it the electronic media covered this so called story (in their words) mentioning the violent attitude if student of esteem institute. After that he resigned and call the open house i.e. similar to parliament meeting to discuss what shold be done to avoid such problems or such calamity henceforth. the TOAT(Tagore Open Air Theater) was houseful and session started with the 1 min silense. the registrar put forth the ideas to improve the hospital. then student asked various queries and gave suggestions. one of such sudent pointed out that our DD(Deputy Director) is the chairman of the hospital so everybody started demanding the resignation. the next person in the line of fire was DOSA(Dean of Student Affairs), student also demand the resignation. The DD assured that this will be investigated with the Enquiry ("no Inquiry") commission and also promised that the press note will be issued about the misinterpretation of media regarding the students behaviour.

I couldn't understand the mentality of the Indians in fact I must do it, but the resignation is not the solution to each and everything. but whatever we observe from that only we absorb. The national politics revolves around such demands of resignations. and then if the person resigns we feel victorious as if the death of student was the tool to remove the administration. but what about that student, his family they must have dreamed the best for him. he will graduate from IIT, secure a job, make the whole family happier. but alas the dream is the dream again in fact the dream that will never be true.
for one moment I stood in his role, my ambitions, my career, my duties for parents........
what is there now only memories of mine now in the hearts of my friend, my family....
then I changed the role what will be response if he was my friend not only the friend but the best friend. the first thought came - the friend is gone whom will i share my feelings? who will be with me all the time? who will make me world's happiest man
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and
who will make me the world's SADDEST man by leaving me alone in this world.
then the thought of indian spirituality came to my mind "Aatmaa to amar hein" then why r u crying.
"are tuch hotas na to jyaane apaghataachya weli dhairyaane ghetale!"
are ho pan tenvha sudhdaa mitra hotech mi mazyabarobar!

so it is simpler for one to digest the death of family member than that of the Friend.


faarach bharakattoy na mi?
aso
je zale tyaat mazyadrushtine
"The day is one who decides the fortune, not a man nor the prewritten destiny. The only thing in human hands is :On that DAY how You stand against the threats or how you make the most of it as an opprtunity"
for our director, DD, DOSA it was the unfortunate
and the student was not unfortunate, but the situation in which he was trapped was the life taking away. I pray god "tyaachya atmyaas shanti laabho"

Eklaa chalo re

If you have 1 whole day and no work to do on that day. how will you spend it ? I have answer for this, Many times many of us will say "Lets Enjoy it !" but what to enjoy if you are alone in the scenario? Sleep one of the most influencing factor to spend time. I thank God that he/she have blessed us with this type of rest. But it is also true that to get good sleep you must have done the work mental or physical but some work or the Sleep also turn its face off you. Why I am narrating so much because I am going to write about my experiance of two days , two totally different , mutually exclusive and collectively exhaustive in nature. Sorry to use this language as it is not simple to understand but yes in reality i found the meaning of these Statistical terms otherwise only the hypothetical in soundind and learning statistics. I know that I must learn to discipline my thoughts because they go on changing their tracks. let it be. The first day the Saturday 13 th December, No work to do on that day as lab and department was closed. I woke up at 9 am not always (during stay at IITKGP) I wake up at so much late. then all cleaning activity at most time consumigly and most seriousy. then upasana and then start my most laziest day of life upto 12 I again got to bed and while laying started watching Sarabhai Vs Sarabhai, I had queued all 62 episodes in the VLC media player. Started watching it But according to law of Diminishing marginal utility, I got bored at 3rd episode only. Then I go to the corridor to play cricket with my best partner "The corridor wall" I played cricket for 1 hour approx. then gone for lunch, ate paratha bhaji and lassi (too sweet to bare Bengali food!) then Again came back to room started new session of Film watching Hera pheri and Golmaaal (old) But I found that it is good to watch such movies for once only. Again in the bed trying to sleep as per my Aai I am blessed with the Nidra dewataa but this time she also became helpless I dont know why such happened ? But I ignored it and started to pass the day keeping in mind I am not going to do any Value addition work today. to be continued....

One Discussion

Today I , Kiran and Tanmoy were forced to think about the decision of continuing M. Tech with Ph.D. first of all I started the discussion as I am very keen to seek admission in the Ph.d. so I took charge of the brain storming session. Various questions were came out First was why stick to this institute and not to opt the abroad institute? Secondly there was about the time required and monetory benefits in doing Ph.D. and Third and last issue was the what to do after?
In first issue I strongly took the side of doing Ph.D. work in India and make that type of research work that will be helpful for my society in fact me. I was confident enough to argue on this issue This may be because of the background I was having of social responcibility. In the process of choosing the topic for research the motive must be clear and it must be well defined . Well defined in the sense that it is clear tosuch extent that you can explain it to anybody and make him motivated to do similar thinking. As a whole the first issue was resolved on the following lines IITKGP is the best option to do Phd work. In second issue disscussion it was very much subjective in nature as well as objective. Subjective in the sense that for every individual there are responsibilities for example towards family. and every individual has his lower limit of satisfaction i.e. anything above that limit the individual is satisfied. In case of one, He has younger sister and his father is pujari of temple.So according to me for him this is not the right time to go for Ph.D. He must fulfill the family responsibility. But there is also one more thing happening as news is flashing on DC++ noot encouraging situation for IITans in terms of Placements. So we also consider this fact and then we conclude that this is not the good time so during this economic recession period we would prepare ourself and then take the challenges. As I was not in favour of this fear but I was not at all interested in this recruitment procedure as always so I didn't comment on it and moved further. What to do after completion of Ph.D.? this was crucial issue as we were concerned I declared my future plans I want to be Prof. and utilize my life as per my way of life. May be the meaning of my way of life was not clear to them but they understood that I am not going to work under anybody. I tried to convey the meaning " It is not of that sort but I will decide the way or follow the way told by Swami Vivekanand as both of them were unaware of Samarth Ramdas , Maharshi Dayanand and unfortunately even I am unaware of work of Yogi Aravind. As a whole the nature of work to be done after completing Ph.D. was discussed. Some of the majors were Doing consultancy to the firms or companies. As we were observing the monetory figures our dept. prof. were dealing with in CRORES as a dept, the most earning dept in IITKGP. some sort that work. Well as it is now going out of reach and out of the capacity of the blog space i conclude here only

today I understood that whatever be the depth of friendship you have but it must be clear that whenever you pretend anybody as your friend you must be responsible for it.
I know it is very much complex statement, but I want to elaborate it.
First of all Responsible for what?
Answer is responsible for his success or failure , happyness or sorrowness for first you mus be and for second you must avoid to be. You must make him proud of being your friend and not the ashamed of. As a result you must be in the lit of jewels of your friends life.
So whenever you make friend you must think positively and not as a bussinessman.
You must accept anybody as a whole. I know its very difficult but you must try it. The human as awhole means with His likes and dislikes, with his positives and negative and convert the negatives to positives.
Why so much I am telling?
Its totally theoretical
But I want to make it practical. I know my plus and minus Frankly speaking my plus points are I can teach the things very easily I could find the examples related to one who experiance it day today. May be this is not my PLUS point but of thesubject I am referring to. Next I am Very good at making things happen for me as well as for my friends according to needs.
About Minus The space is tooooooooooooooo small to write about it.
Today I will write first
The time available to me I could not Plan Act and Control.
Plan - I feel that the time is much more than it is actually available so I postpone the decision of doing or Acting or Reacting as much as I can so planning is not done properly
For Example I had 3 Days spare with me but what I had done ? I could not remember a sigle hour that I have done work that I can say oroudly to my friend that this way You should spend time

Am I Neglected or taken for Granted?

Last week I and Gaurav went to Kolkota just to visit Belur math. I called Jogya from there just for timepass. During conversation the topic of Siddharth's engagement was discussed. I was totally unaware of this thing. At that moment I felt I was totally neglected by my friend not a single word was uttered by him during my stay at Pune. And more over that even Aakash and Akhilesh were aware of this fact but not me. I wasn't in a state to react to the news. Just because of my mind was full of anger and igoism. The work of making me more and more angry was being done side by side by Gaurav in form of laughing and tonting me. I just show no response to that but afterwords I just thought impartially. It was a very funny process of thinking. Instead of From -ve to +ve it was from +ve to -ve it started with ' may be Sid must have thought that the I am aware of this thing as Everybody is knowing this. ---> No No How can he take me for granted As I am supposed to be his friend He must tell me atleast once ---> What is there to tell anybody if someone is getting engaged ---> may be I am not his close friend to him he should talk personally may be I am one of the population for him ---> I have to be more friendly in nature to be in the close group of friend whom i consider as my close group.

well this matter or issue is over for me but it is important to give a look to the thinking process as it should be in +ve direction and not in negative one especially in case of shocking or surprising event occur in the life.
Sid's engagement was surprise for me not the event but the way it was conveyed was surprising to me I congratulate him through this post. As he may think I am as late as tubelight

1 november

I am looking forward to organise my thinking process.

best way is to write it and then read it whther the written content is equal to the thought or not.

so as far as possible i will do this process repeatedly so that i can minimize the difference or gap between the thought and wrote.